Disabled Account

I am utterly devastated that my Discord account has been disabled. 

The blow was sudden and unexpected, devoid of any prior warnings that I can recall. I suspect that I may have been reported by others, leading to this unfortunate predicament. Yes, I feel an immense guilt for breaching the “Terms of Service”, but as someone grappling with mental illness, I found myself mimicking the behavior prevalent in the toxic servers I had joined. Curiosity lured me into these communities, and once immersed, the content I encountered drove me to emulate their discriminatory rhetoric and actions.

(And to clarify, I am 14 years old, still an inexperienced child still striving to find my way, my parents were too busy to check on my online life back then, but now they do it regularly)

The day I tried to log into Discord and was met with that glaring red message, declaring my credentials invalid, a wave of panic washed over me. It was then I realized my account was disabled. In a frenzy, I bombarded Discord with emails, desperate for a response, but received no reply back. 

This ordeal propelled me into therapy. I meticulously dissected each mistake I had made, learning from them in my quest to become a better person. I am no longer the unhinged creature I once was; I have grown and moved on from this episode. Yet, I am haunted by the absence of friends I cherished on that platform. While I have managed to reconnect with four of them, countless others remain out of reach, and I yearn to explain my disappearance, to clear the air and mend the void my sudden exit created.

Thou I read some of the feedbacks of other people who got their account disabled, and I understood that my message is meaningless and won't get any attention, still..

Dear Discord, I beg you for a second chance.