my apology to discord and the servers I have raided.

Dear Discord team, this is Fleur. 

 

When I first started to use discord, I found that it was a wonderful way of contacting with my long-distance boyfriend, and eventually fell into the hole of tik tok. When I began to join the coalition servers, I thought that the whole "raiding servers" was joke. I played up my experience, etc etc. The idea of being in some sort of silly war inflated my head, and I began to say "oh, furry scum," etc. I don't know if I said anything about self harm, nad if I did then that is truly inexcusable. When we started raiding, it seemed like a small scale to me, after all, we were a very small server, and I thought that the "50+ raids" were more like "yeah, we totally have this many people." I am truly sorry and I swear on my life that I will never touch the servers/raiding. Please feel free to send this to those of the servers I raided "- Dear Server Owner. I've joined your server, sent images and offensive text, and I have no excuse for doing so. It was a stupid, immature, and destructive move. I betrayed your trust, and that is a thing that no one should ever have to experience. I hope you all can find it in your hearts to forgive me. " I did create a new account, and I will glady give you the name of said new account. However, all I ask of you is a chance to say goodbye to all my friends that I've made in my personal server before you ban my next account. Source and MistrMage, two of my greatest friends, have helped me through so much. I know them both irl, and they can vouch that I'm really not a bad person. I was going through some..tough times in the beginning of the year, and they were always there for me. I hope you can understand this.  You as well, discord team. I guess I kind of saw it as a fun, stress relieving activity, raiding and being in the coalition made me, just a high school freshman, just barely over 15 [yah, I said I was older and stuff to protect my personal information in some servers, which, yes, is something I should be punished for] I joined discord because I wanted to become a famous singer, or artist, and the community in discord made me feel a part of them. Maybe I'll never get my accounts back, and I understand why that would be - I've betrayed many people in discord, I've raided, etc. And then for my personal beliefs - I'm part of the LGBTQ+ community, however my parents are very religious and strict on this, and therefore don't know anything about my girlfriend. I haven't been able to tell them for a long time, but discord was a place where I could freely be PROUD of who I was. I was warned this could happen, but I didn't heed said warnings. And I understand that was a stupid things to do. If this is the last time I see discord, I just want to thank you and your team for creating this app that has given me so much happiness over the time that. It would mean so much to me if I could be allowed my account just for a day again, to thank those in my server, and say goodbye to the dear friends that I have contact with every day. 

 

Again, with my sincere apologies, 

                   Fleur 🌱